As I am settling into some form of a consistent lifestyle in China, and it becomes less and less about traveling than documenting exactly what it is to LIVE here. Worry not, I can assure you that every day is still just as much of an adventure as my transport here – plenty of juicy bits to follow up on!
So…I work late. I mean I work really late – most nights I don't get home until 3 or 4am at the very earliest. So it came as a bit of a shock that on this particular Wednesday night, we as a band were informed that we would be meeting at 9am that following morning to go get our residency papers completed and filed. That time
I am dying. I am dying and there's nothing I can do about it. I know this, but I refuse to believe that I will just fade away quietly: that when I'm gone and when those that knew me are gone, that there will be nothing more of me in existence. I want to be remembered; I want to make a mark. Is it not the human condition to desire this?
I feel that no matter what good thing I attempt to pursue, it takes me somewhere that I had never intended to be, and that much further from my goal. Every consequent step taking me further down a tangential path I never consciously made. I have two hands and a voice and the knowledge of how to use them, but I
A new sun rises,
A day has dawned.
The tables have turned
And the curtains are drawn.
Static faces in blank disguises,
Two suns can't set before another rises.
Gazing to the unknown horizon,
My whole world is torn.
Flowing from her eyes and into mine,
Prospects are reborn.
The vision forever lingers:
Hair clasped in rigorous fingers.
The sky was murky,
Two drops of color lost in a glass.
Stirred once and left...
Left to sort things out with the amorphous deep.
Frail foundations
Without fair warning,
And angels at night
Have never dreamt of morning.
Expressionless smiles,
Wrinkled, cracked plastic...
Hollow words
neither believes.